I can usually see it coming.
The tears, the despair, the pain.
I try to redirect, distract, anything.
But nothing I do can ever stem the tide.
The tears come.
The despair comes.
The pain overwhelms.
Is it autism, hormones, something else?
All I can do is hold you in my arms, powerless, until the wave passes.
Run Luau Run 
I’m sorry.
I know this feeling all too well.
It def has to be hormones, combined with autism. Katie has always been an anxious, emotional kid, but now we have *hours* long sobbing jags, and times we can’t even leave the house. No fun. And most of the time there is no reason…it just happens, whereas usually I can see the trigger. Dang puberty…and we are BARELY even there…sigh.
the “all I can do is hold you” is doing a lot and it is enough but it is so very hard. I have been there. thinking of you.
I definitely think it’s the perfect storm of Autism and hormones but I’m so sorry, it’s so hard for all of you.
Love you,
Mom
Ow.
Luau,
You sir, are an amazing Dad. In what I do, I see so many “NOT Luaus” and it breaks my heart. Know that being there and holding her…and your other two amazing girls is so much more than you realize. I understand, that to you, it doesn’t seem like enough…but I guarantee that if you ask any of them, they will tell you it is EXACTLY what they need.